元宵节快乐

自欺欺人？

為一個家不像家的地方 洗洗刷刷
為一個不開心的我 增添喜氣
我是在自欺欺人嗎？
不是 我在留給我自己一些希望
希望明天會更好

Is it really stomach pain?

Since Monday, Dylan always complain that he has stomach pain whenever he has his lunch. There is vomiting involved but no diarrhea. On the first day, it caused an alarm and we decided not to skip school. I brought him to see doctor the next day. Doctor said it is food poisoning and prescribed him medicine, one for his stomach pain and one to prevent vomiting after eating. Today is the Friday already, and he is still complaining he has stomach pain.

I read some article on the net, it can be caused by stress. He only has home work stress. And the rush before the school bus came. I suspect is the later and he make up his stomach pain story. Nanny asked me to give him medicine to cure it. I personally dislike to take medicine to cure anything. To me medicine cannot cure bad eat habit.

He has his breakfast at 9am and it takes some time for him to finish it by 10am. Then he take his lunch at 11am. (that is if he finish his lunch!) Snack time at school is at 3:30 pm (that's if he doesn't forget to eat). His dinner is at 8pm. So between 9am to 9pm, if he doesn't have proper food, there is sure a lot stomach wind accumulate which cause him to have stomach pain.

Next month he will stay at home with me. I will have to make sure he had his lunch before going to school. I will need to go market and cook early. I hope I can cope with the lunch cooking and teaching him school work at the same time.

Should I or Should I not

Yesterday Dylan was doing his Mandarin homework - 认识部法. He forgot what is the second last word that his teacher ask him to write. As usual, he started to get worried and crying. I had told him not to worry, just need to ask his friend the next day and quickly did it before the teacher checks the next day. Also ask him to ask for friends' phone no so that he can ask if forgot next time.

Again he had asked me to follow him to school once again to help him sort thing out. He told me teacher ask me to go to school to collect new school time table and to pass me the spelling test schedule. I was not too sure if I should believe what he said or not. I told him again to ask for teacher phone no to confirm. Nowaday parent are not allowed to go inside school compound easily as wish...

I hope this is just some hiccup in the begining. It is not that I don't want to go with u to school. I want u to be a more independent student and ask anything that u would like to know your self. Boy, I am waiting for that some day to come soon by giving u the choice. Good luck!

辛苦你了

好久没有回家过年了。早在去年十一月时，小慧说将会会去过年想要回去呢！早餐店还刚刚开不久吧了，还在拚命筹那改有的四千点数。到了十二月点数是筹到了不过来的顾客都没有保留到，只有一个是认真的直到现在。那时心情是多么低落呀！正在彷徨之余，家乡来了噩耗。大舅去世了。在过几天弟弟通知说母亲叫大家都会去拍拍全家福照。那时就不假思索的就上网定购机票。价钱已是七百多了。不管了豁出去了！

回到家了，家里最忙碌算是妈妈了.从早到晚忙做饭. 劝她不用做饭,我们都可以在外面小吃的, 干盘面,干饼,还有很多家乡的食物.她还是自顾自的在厨房忙.我还是出去找吃,不过会来了还要吃饭哦!去我的两公斤就是这样长出来的!

过年前夕前一晚,她忙着炸鱼和虾并到半夜.头头我还有帮忙.到后来忙着吃.哈哈.弟媳一定觉得我也太懒了吧.到后来就她来帮忙妈妈到三更半夜的.弟媳还怀孕两个多月呢! 第二天弟弟应该心痛太太吧,叮咛我要帮妈一下! 我不知妈那来的能量可以顶. 是硬撑的吧. 叫她休息片刻,她还不听.到五点,除夕菜都做好了.又要开饭了! 讲起来好像好累. 我看如果她在古晋过年应该没这样累呱!到最后她说腰骨要断了!

不是我不帮忙,是在是不知她脑子里想什么.也只有洗碗的分儿.洗呀洗的也闷了又跑到客厅去了...然后又听到..."吃饭了" !!!

What am I

Changing my self is not easy.
From hot temper to good temper.
From introvert to extrovert.
From easily get excited to take thing easy.
From stingy to generous.
From putting on cool face when hearing something not to liking to pretending that it is funny.
From taking thing for granted to appreciating thing more.
From in-decisive to decision making.
From in-patient to be more patient to son.

I am still trying very hard to cross that line to become a better person.
God please help me.

Am I really that sick?

Recently I went back home town celebrating Chinese New Year. I learnt that my sister-in-law is into her 2nd month pregnancy. I am happy for them and they will have a dragon year baby. Later they told that they were having trouble conceiving in the state trying to get a baby rabbit last year. After coming back and recommended by friends, they went to a massage by a native Bidayuh. She was told to come back for a second massage. But then she already conceive soon after the massage. When asked if I want to get a massage too, I immediately nod my head. And so an appointment was made.

Her humble place is near end of Tiong Hua Road just behind the police station. Her balcony has grown of various orchid pot. After several knocking and waiting, finally the door was opened. A 50s something looking women standing in front of us wearing a kind of batik pyjamas. Later after asked, she told us her name is Siti Aisiah aka to the YDP Permaisuri Agung. haha. Don't know how true is it but who cares.

We were led to her living room where there was a fold portable bed ready. She unfold it and ask me to take of shirts except the panty. I was really impress with her knowledge on detecting the problem part. Like sprain at my ankle, back small leg, right kidney area, left buttock, neck area. Altogether she identified close to 12 area that I need to apply heated patch for 3 days. She also help to push the uterus back up by asking me to pose at weird position. Her service take around 15 minutes or so for RM 30. My brother said that if I can impose myself as a bumiputra may be she will only charge RM15. hahha... better luck next time. I was told that my problem area may cause me to have left side retarded from stroke. Banyak rosak was the praise that she use. No wonder I was so low energy by the end of day.

Better take care of myself more now... thank you Bruce.

New school term, new begining

The days have finally come. My boy is attending Primary School for school term 2012, starts 4 Jan 2012. Orientation day was very bored for him. Also bored for me too. We reached school just in time as was told. I had to park the car at the housing area nearby. Thinking that we were late already, but then later I knew that if come later was better, as we need to queue in front of the class room for registeration. It took quite a while to reach my turn. Next we settled to find a seat in the class. Dylan couldn't sit still complaining that it was too boring. So we went looking for his Q-Dees friend. As there were a lot of parents or adult around, I was worry that he will get lost. For safety, I followed him helping to 'identify' his friends. We had some snack at the canteen by 10am. Then he needed to be sit in the class once again as the parents had a briefing by the school principal at the hall. We went home by 11:30 am.

I didn't follow Dylan on his first day at school. I blamed it to the notification letter saying that parents were not allowed in. But then on second days as I need to bought some exercise books for Dylan I went to the school. I met my customer what had her boy at primary 2. She mentioned that 1st and 2nd day was the busiest days at school with lots of parents. Hmm...
After settle in school, the parents were 'chased' away by rounding teacher and security guard, advicing us to come again after school.

First week and second weeks of school pasted with little homework. Most of them were colouring work, which Dylan dislike very much. But he got to finish it though. Real teaching will only start on the 3rd week. But we got to say bye bye to teacher with school leave application back to home town.

Re-attending the school on the 5th weeks starts with Dylan discovered that his lost his english workbook. A lot of wailing and crying was heard the nite before much to my dismay. I had to resort to telling him to buy the book the next day for him to which I did. I got myself a teacher warning me parent were not allow in the school compound for whatever reason. That nite Dylan mentione he lost another work book!!! Alamak, he got to be more careful and responsible for his belonging. This time I told to check his friends' bag then if cannot be found, only then to buy another book. As I was told later that evening, he bought the book first, then his friend Billy return the book. *jorr*.

Still trying to finish off his homework due to absence, he was complaining that there were too many coloring that sour his hand. Nanny told me that he wished me to transfer him to another school...

Well, let hear from him tonite again :)

Bye Bye Office World

I quit my office job, yes, finally. I think it is about 1 year after I have posted related post on quiting office job. I have wanted to keep my promise with my little one, to spend more time at home with him. But then, I got to do something right, instead of just cooking and be a mum :) . I was with him alone for 3 months and I was frantically trying to find a job instead of being contended as a mummy. May be becoz at that time, I am not really ready to be a stay at home mum. My job was terminated abruptly when I was 5th month into my pregnancy.

When he was small, there is no much concern on how he should feel. You know, what he know only sleep, eat, sleep, eat... haha and being mummy feel so bored doing nothing at home and nobody to talk to. N no internet too at that time.... U get into post-natal depression... Well, I still took care of him at nite. It has been my pleasure to do so until now. Unlike some of my friends who rather left their babies with relatives only to bring them back on weekend. But u can't run away with nagging all the time, I think all mummy does that.

Now he is much older and can carry out adult like conversation, he has more demand on attention and often express his dislike of staying at nanny house. For one thing, he is not allowed to go out to play. Also, when he eventually in elementary school, he will need to involve more in his friends cycle. I don't really believe in academy excellency anymore. Unlike myself, who was always at home, studying... darnnnn... that I missed a lot of wonderful times ... I still wondered if time can be turn around, what could I have done differently!

And so I search and search and search and I search one thing that I can count on... and here I am, ready to quit and that I am entering new milestone of my life... hoorraayyy and importantly I feel great! One of my friends said, I am always doing something weird, out of ordinary than others people. May be she is true, I never realise until she mentioned about it. hahaha...
And I wish myself good luck too !

Secret Fan Out There

There is a secret fan out there reading my blog. Occasionally I got a comment/feedback or whatever you call it. That's a nice surprise knowing that some one out there is taking an interest of my blog. Well, whoever you are, I must say thank you for all your feedback. Love to know who are you actually, if u want and let's make friendsss...

I will try my best to write more often now that I am sort of FREEEE from the office world, at least for months ahead!

Emotional Kid

I guess my son is an emotional human as me. When the sleeping time is coming and there is nothing that is occupying his brain, he will recall all the things that is happening during his day. And mummy is a good place to share his day. What does his friend said or did, what song had he learnt today, what colour of his friend's birthday cake, why his teacher always angry him, how jie-jie had to go upstairs and play up there, instead of playing with him.

Before that if I asked what he did at school or nanny place, his standard answer is Nothing :).

I hope he will always remember he can always talk to me although I am a fierce mum during the days :)

Swimming milestone

Yesterday was another Maal Hijrah public holiday. I brought Dylan to the club for a swim. It had been 3 months past since we deep into that pool. Raining and the obsession to play with his bike is the main reason. The day was not hot and there is a lot clear cloud that shun the sunlight. So I thought is a good time to try for a swim.

I purposely didn't bring his round float and instead I brought his arm float and flat float. Dylan is a big boy now. He didn't complain when I asked him to put on his arm-float. We tried it on the kid pool for a start. After a few tries, he threw away his flat float and was happily paddling away with his arm float. I am so proud of him... And suddenly he said he can put his head into the water and see the water underneath !! He was quite please with himself. He said, mummy, u didn't say U are proud of me ah.. hahaha.. Yes, he likes re-assurrance... Of coz, he had swallowed a few mouth of pool water. He asked me if the pool water will be finished by him or not ... hahaha... so funny. Of coz, it won't, silly... Then how the water will be finished ? Well, when they drain the water for pool cleaning la... hahaha...

I hope his love for swimming will sustain so that he can improve on it... Good job, boy!

Happy Mum.

Quiting a job for more than 15 years

Today I learnt that 2 my ex-colleauges are quiting their job of 12 years and 15 years respectively. It is a difficult decision for them. I think if I am in their shoe, I will also feel the same. When I was younger, I tell my self to work hard to save lots of money and will do what I can to achieve that. My mom and dad are always a non-believer of job hoping. There were in teaching profession for more than 30 years. My sister in Miri also is holding to her current for donkey years even though it didn't give her a good pay.

I quit my first company after 7 years !! At that time I didn't feel as emotional as this friend of mine. I just want to leave that damn place after seeing things that is happening there. Most of my friends of same batch had already long left and I felt that I should hv nothing to hold me back. So I took the plunge also.

In current company, i have worked for 3 full years and now I am thinking of quiting too !! :P After all this year, I am really not very happy with my life and would like to try some thing else... I am still wondering where and what I should do.... I hope God will show me the way...

Standard Chartered KL Marathon 2010

Yah, I think I should write about it. This is another personal achievement in my life - running a marathon. During April 2010, my colleague, Ms Samathan Lee, who had taken part in last year Marathon, invitde me to join her in the run. At that time, I was busy preparing demo for our bread and butter customer and feeling preasure and down and despressed with my work life, I thought, why not ? That is something different than mountain climbing. That's how I asked her to sign me up immediately. From then, there is no turning back. I had always thought of running the Penang Bridge marathon since I started working in Penang soon after graduating from USM and until now I haven't fullfilled the dream yet. Also, I thought I will be star in the atheletic field during school day if not for my parent who is very academic oriented. From then, my mind is focusing on this marathon. I started practicing after work with Ms Lee and others at KLCC park every other day if possible. I run for 2 rounds as a start and then increased to 3 rounds in June 2010. When the time almost near the actual running day, I tried running Sg Long big round which is 6.3 KM which took me 1 hour time, training 45 minutes for 2 of the weekend.

And I make it. My gun time is 1:34 and my net time is 1:28:18 !!! Bravo... and I am still thrilled with my achievement. hahahaha LOL.... LOL....

Although I feel body ache and leg pain now (it is recovering) I think it worth it !! And luckily my 'sister' came a few day before the run... hahaha.

FIFA World Cup 2010

Yeah, the FIFA world cup 2010 has finally come. Not that I am a football fan, but just want to be part of it. I have taken part in Office mini football result prediction and JacknJill handphone charm bidding game !! http://www.jacknjill.com.my/charms.php?regthanks=1

All the footballer, u are the best! Let's see what u've got !

Holistic Approach to Pregnancy

I have been trying to get pregnant since my last miscarriage about one and half year ago. This include eating some EPO to resolve my headache problem. Hubby has been working hard on this too. So far there is no sign of pregnancy yet. It come to a point that I almost give up on it. Then I read on this Holistic Approach to Pregnancy. It involve changing your diet and restore your body and spirit to a balance state. May be I should try this!!

Telephone appointment with my dear

Yesterday I joined Dylan's school field trip to Domino Pizza Taman Connaught, TUDM gallery and Vitagen factory. We paid RM 130 for the trip. It was a good experience for me to Y
Then it happened again every time I did this go-together thing with Dylan. He refused to go to nanny place the next day when the school was off for the day. I had to tell white lies just to get him agreed to go to nanny place. ie, office had police that will detain any children in sight, that I worked in other office already, that I will bring him to library after I worked, and finally he agreed on calling him before he sleep in the afternoon. So I set a reminder in my handphone to call him by 12:45 pm. I was in a meeting and I sneak out finally at 1:18 pm to give him a call. Nanny said he was sleeping already. I asked her to wake him up. If not, he will blame me later for not keeping promise. When he finally woke up and called mummy, my tear starts rolling down... asking him if he sleep already, if he had his lunch, and that I will bring him to library this evening when I get back. At the end, he was just nodding his head at the other side of the line. After that, I said bye-bye and asked him to sleep some more. Oh... how my heart is aching... I quickly go to toilet to clear my tears before continuing the QA meeting... I LOVE U DYLAN !!

My name is among the registered owner !!

Yvonne send me this link and I am jumping for joy ...
http://pinalcountyaz.gov/Departments/Recorder/Pages/DocumentSearch.aspx?fy=2009&fn=107243

Yippie... having more faith in landbanking for now...

Just the three of us, bunny and mimi once more

Today my parent is leaving for Singapore, in part of their series of journey to West Malaysia, now going to explore the new casino thingy in Singapore. My sister's family had long departed to US on the 3th May 2010. Now just left three of us and my pet, Bunny and Mimi.

Kind of missing the full house feeling, altho I was lacking ton of my beauty sleep for long time :)

Hopefully my sister's family in Miri will be able to make the trip during year-end!

Memories from the gathering:
1) Have fun seeing Michael's family eating supper at mid-nite
2) Have tonnes of new t-shirts from Ah Hie's trip to Hongkong, yippie...
3) Taking family photos together with mum and dad, dream come true
4) Cutting LingLing hair
5) Dylan having a blast with his LingLing and LingLing was enjoying Dylan company.
6) Dylan consumption of candy, chocolate ...etc junk was the peak of his life !
7) Dylan celebrating his 5th birthday with family members
8) Having seen quite a lot of relatives back home in Sibu, just short of Ti-ti who promoted to be a father!
9) Knowing dad also into land-banking too !!
10) Loss of tonnes of beauty-sleep :)
11) Changing the layout of furniture for 2 guest rooms
12) Mom was busy washing the bed-sheet after the guest left.
13) Had dinner every day after work. Thanks mum !
14) Mum amend my blanket!! Cosy and nice blanket.

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endless ....

Appreciating Your Child!

One of the mummy of my son's Tick Tock Beat class lend me a book entitled is 欣赏你的孩子 by 张弘. The author himself has a deaf daughter since 1 year olds who turn out to be a genius down her life time. This book has enlightened me on various mistakes that I had made in communicating with my son. It emphasized on not belittling him but to highlighting his strong points. For example, if he has homework that have 10 questions and he did only one correctly, instead of start to get aggigated and soaring and blaming him for the rest of the wrong answers, I have to phrase him for the correct one !! Also, it had an example by a well-known Japanese Violionist on how he teached his son, 玲木. He quoted as saying that his son if can get thru passing mark is consider passed la !! No need to get 100 mark ! It reflected on me too. When I attended some course that required some sort of exam, I was happy even I just passed and will not want to sulk at the result. Instead of concentrating on school work, as long as his son finish his school work, he should use other time to read others non-school related book. This bring a great enjoyment to his son life-long learning experience.

I have only managed to read only a quarter of it and I am sleepless over it already. Today I got panda eyes!!!